The unnecessary melancholy

School's out. I have exams.

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;


For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day.

extracts from "Eloisa to Abelard"
-Alexander Pope-

IS GOD DEMOCRATIC??

Very interesting question no? Honestly, I think God isn't democratic. He's more like a figure of all things good. He preaches, no doubt through his countless supposed prophets of the good will of humanity and how to lead a good and sin free life, which no doubt serves as a good platform for which to build our social and moral understanding, but to go as far as to say he is democratic I don't know. But then again what is democracy right? Freedom to choose, freedom of speech, etc. etc. But I pray do not let your pre-assumptions get the better of your judgment. Having said that this is an individual opinion.

I've been watching a programme of late entitled "Why Democracy?". Its a 10 part series encompassing the various views on democracy and what it means to live in a democratic nation. I must say its very interesting. I find its easy for us to criticise since we're privileged enough to live where we are, but the programme just opens the eye a tad. Too bad they don't air in Malaysia, though they might in the Discovery Channel.

On another note, I am going to fall ill. I can feel it. The signs are very ominous for me. I injured my back for one, so now I can't really move it much and I have diarrhea. Yippy kayyay eh. Anyway if you're interested there's a website about the programme and it has a forum which is where I got the question from, I suggest you go, just for the sake of it. Neways thats that from me, till next time....

p.s. Suggestions and comments regarding the matter are welcomed just don't go calling me an arsehole or an idiot because you feel otherwise about the matter.

Update??

Time for an update me thinks. Really there's nothing much to update about. Its pretty much all about studying from now on really. So basically, the only update really is that I'm studying. Hey at least its an update, of some sort anyway. So really thats it. I'll write something more...interesting I guess a little later on.

Just a few things before I go:

1. Watching Soul Plane now, the one where Snoop Dogg's the pilot, it makes ABSOLUTELY no sense but its funny as hell!!
2. Winning 11 is a very addictive game especially when one is tired of studying. It happens to piss the living shit outta me too sometimes.
3. If you are fond of tunes from retro bands like the Cure, Blondie, or even Blink 182, try listening to Superbus. But they're French so, naturally they're songs are in French but the tunes really addictive.
   

Tchi-cum-bah by Superbus, check it out. Its not for everyone, especially if you're really into those sentimental love songs, but I say its good. XD

Neways thats bout it from me, so till next time...

Love is in the air...

So is the rain lately. Thats not saying much to be honest. Not when you come from the land of perpetual rain. And god knows this country desperately needs some. But more interestingly so is love apparently, and the exams obviously, which makes it all seem very ironic. I figured it has something to do with the weather. Boy the rain must really get them in the mood, the mood for love. But its not only the rain or the blissfully mild weather(almost..minus the rain of course) but somehow or rather this love thing is directly related to exams. Theory is that as the exams approach, more and more couples pop up. I don't know if that holds true regardless but it seems to be the trend. Heck if you drew a graph it'd probably look something like a normal probability distribution graph, with the mean being spring and what not. Conclusion: The irony..too resounding...or I may just be loosing my mind. Either way food for thought.

Exams are coming up, the trials are now. I still have 4 SAC's, nay 5. 3 for chemistry, and we haven't finished the syllabus yet. Maths and chem tomorrow. Then physics and maths again on Wednesday. Then what else but math again on Friday. At least it was better than the 20 odd papers we had to sit for SPM. Alas! That is that. Complaining never really fixed anything. At least after all this I'll have a decent break after this before the big mama. So back to studying, hopefully or Winning 11 either way, thats it from me. Till next time...

P.S. Foo Fighthers are coming...YES!!

Recap

In the last few weeks...

1. Miss South Carolina is officially the stupidest Miss Teen in America.



Somehow, she managed to link America to maps and Africa and lack of education. Wow...



2. The rugby world cup has started and Australia trashed Japan...91-3.

Don't that just make you feel so proud to be an Asian.


3. The APEC summit is being held in Sydney.


Nearly 3000 Australians protested near Sydney Harbor.


4. Luciano Pavarotti has passed away. The great maestro passed away at the grand age of 71 after long time battle with pancreatic cancer leaving behind a great legacy.



5. Justine Henin no Hardene cause she's divorced has won the US Women's Open. Besides that, she also pocketed herself 1.6 million US dollars.

Not too shabby eh.


Finally... I have 5 more SAC's a trial this coming week and a half and exams in about a month and a half. Joy...

Life according to....

Imagine for one second, that everyone talked hokglish ( hokien and english). Life'd be pretty damn funny. It'd be like Pua Chu Kang in high definition. Actually worst..

Hypothetical scenario 1:
A friend spots a girl that is quite pretty walking on the street. He calls out to you, "Oi! Ci bai! That ca bo quite chooi leh!"
You turn your head and concur, therefore you say, "Diao! Right la brother! She damn si bei nap! But the ca bo heng next to her ka na sai man!!"
Your friend agrees and you walk away.

Hypothetical scenario 2:
You walk on the street, a car comes within inches of knocking your socks off. You feel unsatisfied. So you shout, "Eh diao you la ci bai!!! Ka ni na!! Who taught you to drive one??!! Your lau bu ah??!! No wonder your driving ka na sai only la!! I call mata then only you know ah ci bai!!"
The guy looks baffled. You walk away with one last cry of CI BAI!!!!

Hypothetical scenario 3:
You want to go to the toilet. But your friends are curious. They want to follow you and know where your going. So you say:
"Why so kae po wan you?? I pang jioo you also want to follow? For what jiak pa bo seh cho is it??"

If your laughing than I rest my case, if your confused, I'll unconfuse you with a little tutorial later, if you just think this post is weird and stupid and won't come visit my blog again, ah well...its better than those filler posts eh.

Tutorial:
ci bai:not very nice way of calling a person
ca bo:girl
ca bo heng:technically its like calling a girl Ms. Girl..so basically just girl.
chooi (pronouced-chi ooooo):pretty
diao:its not hokien technically..but we still use it...its basically fuck.
si bei nep (pronounced-sii bey nep):its like calling a girl...er...very hot in a not very nice way.
ka na sai:just like shit...literally.
ka ni na:not a very nice word to say also.
mata:police.
kae po (pronounced-kaee po):busy body.
pang jiooo (pronounced-pang jii ooooo):piss.
jiak pa bo see cho:eat full full then nothing to do...basically it means nothing better to do.
lau bu:mother

Disclaimer:
The author wishes to add that the scenario's are extremely hypothetical and as such the reaction of each individual would differ accordingly. The author would also like to stress that not all hokiens curse as such and not all hokiens would result in shouting ci bai at the top of their lungs when confronted with such a situation. The author would like to appologise for any stereotyping of hokiens and subsequently would not like any hate comments from any hokiens. The author would like to stress that the purpose of this post is solely to entertain and not to discriminate and would like to also mention that he is a teochew/hokien and is proud to be one.

"Tiada noktah dalam cinta"

Read that off some blog quite sometime ago. I like that phrase. It says a lot of things without saying much. It gives us hope. Never ending hope. Hope that one day we'll all fall in love. It says that there's no stopping love, that love is continuous, constantly present. Hope, that among all the fog, its all good. There's no full-stop in love. Sounds better in Malay to be honest.

On a lighter note, my SAC's seem to have been on hiatus. I guess it got sick of looking at our faces, rather, the teachers got tired of marking our papers. Alas! My joys are short lived! As I've got 2 next week! A 3 day long ESL one and a Physics SAC. Well, at least my preference planning for uni is done, sort off. Still have to do McQuarrie Institute, but thats for another day. Then there's the UCAS thingo, thanks Beve by the way for the enlightenment, but still gotta be enlightened a little bit more.

Nothing much happens from now on. As I have said before, will be blogging on and off. Nothing really good to blog about. Its still extremely imperative to eat ginger porridge when you're sick AND living alone, simply because its the simplest thing to make, especially when your sick. I disregard chicken soup, cause its an old wives tale, it don't work, but ginger porridge...now thats something I swear by.

Anyway, I will try posting some pictures on Melbourne+winter as soon as I go round taking some pictures. So till then...

It takes 2 to tango...or does it?

Its absolutely imperative to eat ginger porridge when you are sick.

In lighter news, Samantha is here and so is Richmond. This sudden influx of people is slightly alarming and rather amusing to be honest. Particularly because this, of all time, would be the worst time to drop by Melbourne. Simply because its cold and raining. Hence the particularly bad health. Typically they came to wonder upon the great state of Asian people outside of Asia. Take in the sights and sounds of the city. Visit people, the whole shenanigan. I just wonder if they've got school.

Other than that nothing much is happening. The term is getting very busy. Tonnes of SAC's, a few more tests, lots of application stuff for uni and what not.

Nothing much to say, lots of stuff to do. So I guess we'll leave it there for now. By the way, whats the UCAS deadline? Or is registration already closed? o.O

You know, last year, there were 671 applications for the Bachelor of Commerce in LSE....only 51 were accepted....O.O No pressure eh.

What people do in prison.

Check it out!! Remake of the MV for Thriller by MJ from some prison inmates..damn funny man!!

Give me a tune, and I'll sing you a song

3 SAC's + 1 test + band practice = very tiring

Math is killing me. I will die seeing numbers o.O

Consider this a temporary post. Partially cause there's nothing to blog about. So till I find something substantial to blog about, I'm on hiatus. Plus the work, SAC's, and tests are taking its toll on me. 3 and a half more months to go till VCE. Mid term results come out next week O.O. Formal is on Friday. I am now going to sleep.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason,
I thought I love you,
Was just how you looked in the light,
A teenage vow in the parking lot,
Till tonight do us part,
I sing the blues and swallow them too.

Hum Hallelujah
-Fall Out Boy-

Birthday wishes

I turned 18 today.

People wished me...naturally

Some forgot....naturally

Most didn't know....no worries

BUT

In the end..it turned out alright.

So to those who didn't know..now you know XD

To those forgot, no grudges mates...but you owe me one.

To those who bothered...my sincerest thanks and many great wishes in return.

And just for the sake of it...cause I know Beve wants to read this....yes...you were the first XD

Chaos in the Terminal

A storm in a teacup. Imagine that happening in KLIA. Lots of distraught students left stranded, not knowing what to do, lots of very angry parents, yelling and screaming, a few lost MAS staff members, and a very very long waiting line. KLIA in a nutshell. Or should I say, chaos..in a nutshell.

Apparently MAS decided to change their reservation systems. I suppose I understand the need for change, but what I can't understand is HOW the system screwed up so bad. I mean, we live in the age of information and technology, through trial and error shouldn't we have been able to MINIMIZE mistakes. Its fine if there's a long line leading into the check-in counter, but over-bookings? So much so that people have to be moved from flights? Even if you've booked your flight months ago, a CONFIRMED ticket. I think its absurd. World class airliner...sure...right...

Well, at least we were compensated. And my mum says that money goes into my birthday account. So basically I got 1,200 ringgit to spend. Its not so bad if you look at it that way, but beyond the compensation, I'm disappointed. Its sad to see Malaysia as it is now. No wonder everyone's going away. Its become a place for mamak and forgotten memories more than anything. Its like the banner on the Star Sports when we got trashed 5-0:

"World class facility,
Thrid rate management."

I'd like nothing more than to see our country flourish. But I just don't see it. I quote one of the parents I overheard in the airport,"Just when we were on the brink of real kemajuan this happens, like going back to 3rd world country again."

And we're left wondering who's to blame. Sad stuff it is, and stick around, its getting worst. The irony is too resounding. I guess only the future holds the truth....maybe.

p.s. I'm looking for a digital SLR camera, something not too high tech and expensive like Nikon, but good enough..suggestions?

Which came first? The music or the misery?

Boredom can kill they say.

In the last 5 days I've:

1. eaten a total of 5 times.
2. jumped from house to house like a homeless beggar.
3. watched approximately 14 hours of TV..a day.
4. dozed off 6 times in front of the TV.
5. stoned.

What I should be doing is:

1. finishing my homework BEFORE I go back..not after.
2. buy all the stuff I was asked to buy.
3. clean my apartment.
4. pack!!
5. PACK!!!

And surprisingly, my laziness has some what paid off. I'm losing weight now. Not exactly the way I envisioned loosing weight, but I am losing weight. Funny how things work out eh. Ironic how something so unhealthy can be so....healthy. Its like finding out that eating char kuew teow and murtabak is good for your health. Although I suspect my losing weight has something to do with me eating one meal a day.

On another note. I've realised that tennis chicks have seriously ripped biceps.

Jelena Jankovic.

Damn I wouldn't want to arm wrestle her. And another one.

Serena Williams

This woman EVERYTHING also big. From gia bok(kaboos..er...behind) to her fashion statement. But of course, I still respect them. Tennis ain't easy and playing in the big field even harder.

Neways, thats bout it really. I've squeezed out what seemingly little juice I have left in my brain in this excuse of a post. 2 days to go....

What a week, eh?

Man what a week!!

Paris Hilton gets out of jail and vows not to be a "dumb blond" anymore, *puft* yeah right...

My favorite all time wrestler and long time wrestling idol Chris Benoit committed suicide

And finally to top it off Spice Girls are back together??!!! WHAT THE??!!!

Damn. You'd think that off all people Victoria Beckham would give it a rest considering she's married to the MOST overrated and MOST overpaid footballer in the recent century. But NOOO!!! *sigh* I think I'ma stop before I start getting hate tags from Spice Girls fan who, might I add, are something else themselves.

On another note. TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOME!!! Bloody hell man!! I could literally hear people going *HUH!!* *OHHH!!* The graphics alone are something else. Its ground breaking CGI I tell you. Freaking awesome. Shall say nothing else in fear of getting raped by movie buffs who haven't seen the movie. But I must say, if you don't really follow Transformers the animated one closely or have a rough sense of it, the storyline is a bit retarded, but none the less, awesome.
Anywho, 6 days and counting I guess.

Untitled

Its getting gloomier in Melbourne. Very nostalgic now. The skies are getting grayer. The days getting shorter.

The holidays are coming. And going back seems more and more of a mistake. The past can haunt you they say. And I've gotten to used to the present. They say the past is like a silk cloth that wraps around you. It feels so good to be a part of it, until you realise how tight you've been wounded up in.

I dwell in the past too much really. But sometimes, the past's all we got. When we get lonely, we look back to the people we trusted and once held dear to us, which sometimes we still do. Its a source of comfort. Much like comfort food. Damn that char kuey teow would really taste good right bout now.

But I suppose the past does disappoint sometimes. The shoulda, woulda's and coulda's. Again, I dwell in the past too much. But people move on. And the world moves forward, even if you stay in the past. And thats the scary part really. You leave a place thinking that nothing will change, and that everything will stay the same, not realising it does. Then you come back for a rude awakening. The world changes, so do people eh. In away thats what I'm afraid of. But its inevitable.

But the facts still remain. I'm still getting on that plane. Sometimes I wish I could get on another plane. Just any plane. Anywhere. Would be fine. Then again, maybe not.

Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
-The Taste of Ink-
The Used

I some how think I did write something on the past a couple of posts past, not too long ago really. And I definitely recommend the song if you dig stuff like Papa Roch or FOB.

Hurt-Johnny Cash

Of kacangs and peanuts

I have nothing to blog about.

Its funny, cause last week, I had plenty to blog about. But not anymore. They don't excite me anymore. They don't tickle my fancy no more. Its interesting how we loose interest in things. Its like when we were kids, we just wanted that Ultraman toy.

Hah...not anymore we don't. At least most of us don't.

Then for some stuff, the fire's rekindled. Kinda like the Transformers, make a million dollar movie, a couple of cool adds later, and *POOF* suddenly its the talk of the town. Although corporate capitalism might have been involved in that plot, you gotta say, its got people talking again. I'm sure Freud might have something to say bout that. The quirks of the mind they call it.

Something I thought I'd just put in. Don't that just wanna make you laugh...no?? No you say eh..then take this.

Damn I love family guy..

In the dead of the night...

If you stay up late enough...

you might just see this.

Mist.
Rain but not quite.
Can't help but wonder.
Does God have urinary track problems?
Or was he just feeling....misty?
o.O

WHY....

isit that when a trus is under tension the force acting on a particular point is opposite to the direction of force acting within the trus?

Why isit that I don't know why the force act in the opposite direction?

Why isit colder in the morning than it is at night when the sun comes out in the morning?

Why did The Carpenters ever care if the birds appeared when you(whoever it is) are near?

Why isit when we dilute a solution of alcohol the number of moles of the diluted solution is the same as the original amount of moles contained in the alcohol?

Why do we wake up in the morning sometimes and feel like it's just not worth it?

Why isit easier to say "yes" than it is "no"?

Why is everyone so facinated that Paris Hilton is going to jail when she clearly deserves it?

Why does the KFC chicken in Malaysia tastier than the KFC in Australia?

Why isit called Hungry Jacks in Australia and Burger King everywhere else?

Why does it have to be Jack and not Jill?

Why do I have more acquaintances than I do friends?

Why did the chicken cross the road? Seriously?

Damn queen!!

I have nothing to do. I'm tired of studying. Not that I've been doing much of that anyway. Next weeks the exam. And there has to be a holiday before the exam. The Queen just HAD to be born the day before the exam. Why does the stupid queen HAVE to be born the day BEFORE the exam? WHAT are we doing even GIVING A SHIT when the QUEEN is FREAKING BORN? Of what significance is that to us? Seriously, she's in freaking Britain not Australia. Its just stalling. I hate stalling. Makes us worry unnecessarily.

Damn commenwealth country.

Its one of these pointless holidays. Like the Sultan's birthday. Honestly do we even give a crap? Its just an excuse for whatever reasons one might need a reason for.

And my college is just being a bitch about it, if it were at all possible to call a building a bitch. I suppose if we refered the "college" as the organisation or essentially the people running it, then the term bitch would be, somewhat possible. I have 2 SAC's 4 FREAKING days before the exam. Where's the sense of decency I say! Have they no feelings! Soulless byproducts of social capitalism.

The only upside is I have 12 GB of space. One does tend to wonder what one would do with 12 GB of space. Intriguing question no? I still don't know the answer. I suppose movies would be the answer. I just downloaded Shrek 3 a week before its due. Retribution?!?!

Maybe.

I suppose I'm just bitter after all.