Christmas is red, but i am blue

I've been fine.

People've asked me why do i blog so sparsely then suddenly start blogging so often,
the answer is i don't know, to me blogging is about writing something meaningful and worth sharing instead of just ranting,
of course then there's also the fact that i'm too blardy lazy half the time la but that hardly counts.

So neways, we had prom a couple of weeks ago,
i must say, i've done lots of thinking about prom, and finally decided that it was pretty alright, i know some of you think it rocks and it was the best time you ever had and possibly ever will for the rest of your short or long lives but hey, bear with me,
i just imagined my prom slightly different,
i gave my speech, noone cried but then again with half the people talking while i was giving the speech i gave up a liltle.

So christmas's here, the time where it's better to give than it is to recieve,
meh..frankly i like receiving and i like it to stay that way,
but lately i find christmas rather lame, or stiff.
I mean its nothing like it used to be,
i mean yea..we get together and have a meal and go for mass, thats right,
i only go to chruch twice and christmas is one of them,
what happened to the thrill and excitement, some how i don't feel it anymore, christmas has become just another day of the year, boring,
and when i look back i feel kinda sad,
i want christmas to be like in the movies, magic, mystery, santafied,
meh..i guess it'll never happen, i think i've officially out grown christmas.

Balik kampunged this christmas to JB,
the flood is really bad btw, its pretty much flooded pretty bad along the highways, i even saw these kids pissing in the water cause their house was flooded..=S..
we had bbq, it was alright, didn't really do much, sat round, ate a bit, watched tv, then went back.

I have approximately 30 more days till i leave for Melbourne,
i don't know if i'm ready yet or not,
i want to leave,
but with a heavy heart,
there are so many things i haven't said,
maybe it'll never be heard.

So merry christmas guys and till next time...

Post SPM!!!

Its over!!!

Yup thats right baby!!
No more freaking exams for me, well at least till next year.
I haven't quite figured our what to do with my books yet, i know i'm definitely burning the papers, but books...not so sure, my conscience tells me not too but then again i don't listen to my conscience much so..
I've realised now that SPM's over, i'm actually quite bored. Honestly, i've got nothing to look forward too, i mean, i'm never gonna go futsal unless they have it in Ampang or Aiman suddenly decides to give me a lift,
watching a movie seems rather vague, maybe when eragon comes out,
hanging out is just really hard cause lets face it, everyone else lives somewhere besides Ampang, sides i doubt anyone wants to hang with me.

I find it rather ironic, that in the 5 years i've been in school i've never really belonged or been assosiated to with a clique, or maybe secretly i am but am utterly oblivious and unaware of it,
which would make me a very ignorant little boy,
but for as long as i remember, i haven't, unless the world has flipped and left me on its underside,
i've never been in petty clique arguements or gossips, but i suppose its a good thing, but then again it depends on how you look at it, i mean its good in a sense that you don't get tangled up in unnescessary mess,
but then we tend to miss the closeness and the knowing that we can depend on people who'd always be there,
maybe somethings are just meant to be missed.

Celebrated freedom today by watching Casino Royale.
I must say its pretty good, so much has been said bout Daniel Craig and his acting but i find him to be pretty good,
one of the best bonds in fact,
he's got the pompous, cold hearted, idontgiveashit kinda look,
but he also shows some vulnerability and i think thats whats been lacking in most bond flicks,
the plot in my opinion is slightly retarded, but the action scenes make up for it, definitely a grittier film then its predecessors,
i'd definitely recomend it whether you're a bond buff or not,
also one to be seen in the cinema.

"Vodka martini"
"Shaken or stirred?"
"Do i look like i give a damn!"

I had a rather interesting conversati0n with Shawn in the train regarding what i should do with my hair for prom,
according to him, i should consider "making it all stand",
hmm..not too sure bout that but considering,
despite his rather sinister reassurance that the idea would prove to be quite good, i'm not too sure bout it,
i suppose we'll just have to be suprised, decisions decisions decisions...

Vesper Lynd: That's why i'm going to keep my eyes on the money and not on your finely toned arse.
Bond: You noticed.

I was studying, like any good boy +)..
then i realised....TWO MORE MOTHER !@()^&#&^& DAYS!!!!*inhales and exhales rapidly and suddenly remembering that hormon adrenalina causes sudden excitement and anxiety*

So i'm pretty psyched now, seriously can't wait, even my freaking hands are sweating just thinking bout it, so tommorows the 7th day my grandpa passed, there's gonna be a 7th day rememberance,
or something likedat, apparently it takes 7 days for the soul to reach its destiny, my mum was pretty fascinated by the whole ordeal,
apparently they had a whole bunch of chinese opera people at the furneral for 5 days i think,
they were supposedly displaying his life, how he got to be who he was and all that stuff, i was rather intrigued cause i don't remember that happening when my granduncle passed, its really interesting how different cultures have different ways of celebrating the dead,
my mum said i should've gone but i kinda scorned at the idea, but then again it might've been a good idea.

Btw to my very few and rather phethetic audience, ai lin and rachel are back with a brand new trip.
Yup, its Cherating and its haapening on the 27-30 of December.
She says not to ask who's coming but we have to pay a downpayment of 100 bucks by Prom night.
More details will come soon.

Btw, i bought the new MCR album,
and i TOTALLY ROCKS!!!
love it to blits man, its much better than they're last album, slightly less heavier on the melody but very deep lyrically, i think they're best by far.
I realise that there are just so much crap out there nowadays,
on one corner you've got the rappers with cheap girls and blings and "sparklies", ever notice how repetative the entire ordeal is, flinging money and girls shaking booties, i honestly don't know how that works,
then you've got girls trying to sell their bodies, *sigh*...

Well thats that for now,
must be studying my bio now,
eventhough detest towards the subjects all i feel,
but,
the book calls,
as guilt sets in,
i must leave,
so till next time....

Cause the hardest part is leaving you-cancer,mcr

So long grandaddy

So its been more than a month.

I've been fine, incase you were wondering,
SPM's coming to an end, thats always good i guess, biology to go and thats that as they say,
as for those taking bk or econs sorry, not my problem,
i think i'ma burn my books and all the papers after SPM, just for the fun of it,
i was going to say throw the ashes in the sea but then i realised that the sea is relatively far from where i live, but still.

My grandpa passed away,
old age they say, 90 y.o. i think,
pretty long age eh, but sometimes i think, do you really have to live till your 90,
i've always thought it was just as excuse, prolonging the enevitable fact of death,
but hey, i could be wrong,
he passed on monday, round 7.30-ish i think,
i was trying to think of some fond memories i could remmeber him by, but i struggled,
cause nothing much came up, all i remember doing was calling out to him, "le ho bo?"-are you alright in teochew, then he'd mumble something which i always tought was unaudible but understood was a yes, but then again thats just the way he was,
a quiet man, but i suppose he was a nice man, maybe even kind, but i guess i never really knew,
will i miss him? i don't know, but you come to admire chinese culture really, we remember the person not by mourning but by celebrating, hence thats why we play cards and joke about when were supposed to cry, ofcourse we cry, but then we also laugh,

The trips are all pouring in, everyone's trying to set up trips here and there, in all honesty its all in vain if you ask me, but hey, whatever makes them happy eh,
i've also got my little trip thing going on but i doubt anyone wants to go to golok with me,
but its all good, i suppose it'll be another boring holiday coupled by another year of gruelling hardwork and tiring exams, sigh, but so is the life of thomas,
i've deicided that i'ma go on a road trip one of these days, maybe mexico, that'd be nice,
i suppose for now i'll have to settle for afternoon with friends and movie dates,

Well, thats it for me, be joyous guys!! SPM'S ALMOST OVER!!! Its so FREAKING CLOSE I CAN TASTE IT!!!! Taste kinda salty, and kenny might agree, till next time..

ps.
you HAVE to watch the latest KFC chicken ad, FREAKING FUNNY!!!
i was luaghing for 20 minutes watching that stupid ad, damn lame man!!!
"Nah, take la!?"...hehehe