Christmas is red, but i am blue

I've been fine.

People've asked me why do i blog so sparsely then suddenly start blogging so often,
the answer is i don't know, to me blogging is about writing something meaningful and worth sharing instead of just ranting,
of course then there's also the fact that i'm too blardy lazy half the time la but that hardly counts.

So neways, we had prom a couple of weeks ago,
i must say, i've done lots of thinking about prom, and finally decided that it was pretty alright, i know some of you think it rocks and it was the best time you ever had and possibly ever will for the rest of your short or long lives but hey, bear with me,
i just imagined my prom slightly different,
i gave my speech, noone cried but then again with half the people talking while i was giving the speech i gave up a liltle.

So christmas's here, the time where it's better to give than it is to recieve,
meh..frankly i like receiving and i like it to stay that way,
but lately i find christmas rather lame, or stiff.
I mean its nothing like it used to be,
i mean yea..we get together and have a meal and go for mass, thats right,
i only go to chruch twice and christmas is one of them,
what happened to the thrill and excitement, some how i don't feel it anymore, christmas has become just another day of the year, boring,
and when i look back i feel kinda sad,
i want christmas to be like in the movies, magic, mystery, santafied,
meh..i guess it'll never happen, i think i've officially out grown christmas.

Balik kampunged this christmas to JB,
the flood is really bad btw, its pretty much flooded pretty bad along the highways, i even saw these kids pissing in the water cause their house was flooded..=S..
we had bbq, it was alright, didn't really do much, sat round, ate a bit, watched tv, then went back.

I have approximately 30 more days till i leave for Melbourne,
i don't know if i'm ready yet or not,
i want to leave,
but with a heavy heart,
there are so many things i haven't said,
maybe it'll never be heard.

So merry christmas guys and till next time...