TiLt

heya..its been very LONG LONG LONG time since i've blogged..pretty happy to find this site active and runnin i thought this site would definitely rot in cyberspace..but hey..it still lives*MUAHAHAHAHA*tons of stuff happened..got confirmed as a prefect..three cheers eh..i'm also the president of the interact club(foooyoooo)happy??i dunno..i should be right..RIGHT??yet i cant say i am..and no matter how much i try to sugar coat the truth it doesnt change a thing..the fact is i'm afraid..afraid of the responsibilities i hav to bear with me..i keep thiking to myself what if i slip up??what if i'm not up to expectation??what if i'm just a coward beneath all this skin??and the thought of it scares the balls outa me..basically(been usin dat word a whole freggin lot lately=P)i dunno basically what..as a leader youre supposed to show good examples and uphold your standards..and i just cant do that..i'm always not doing my work..i failed my moral test(got 2 out of 10...not very good...)and the fact that you are supposed to be the epitome of perfection is very scary..sometimes i fell like just giving up my positions..be a normal student ..but them i think back and remembered that when i was a student i dreamt of being at this position..a position where i can say that i am the best and now that i'm almost there.....haih..the delima's we face..and our parents call us immature...
ahwell...you know what they say..the show must go on..all we can do is pray(not much of a beliver myself but...) and hope that tomorrow will be better than today..=P