FAT LIPS!!!!

heys..i jus had the weirdest dream..wokay..so i was at home right after my unfortunate run in with the motorcycle and then my mum calls and says get ready cause were going to go play golf and i said i can't cause my legs screwed and my lips are fat as hell then she says "so what??!! just get ready and i'll pick u up in ten minutes" then suddenly i was in the golf course and i was teeing off the first hole when my dad says "don't you have school today??" and i says to him no..not till nxt monday..then he says "no u have school today!!" and the next thing i know i was in school in my golf attire..and then peter goes up the satge and says "and now we have our vice captain fat lip thomas lead us with the ikrar" and i went all blank for a second then keangston pushed me on the stage and i could see everyone laughing at me and mark tan was saying "yo fat lip thomas fasterlah..wan to rain already!!" then the whole school jus recited the ikrar without me and as soon as they were done it started raining and as i was about to go back to class steffie, lynn , elsa and all you guys said in unison "nice lips thomas!!" which btw was really freaky..then u guys giggled all the wasy back to class and before i knew it i was awake..
i actually have no comments about the dream except that it was uberly freaky and i'm still thinking about it now..i'm begining to think that the accident is begining to take an effect on my self esteem and believe me my parents aren't doing anything to improve that..my dad keeps telling me i look like a fish nad every meal time they ask "sure can eat ah??!!lips so bongkak like that not painfull meh??!!" *sighsighsighsighsigh* ahwell..school's in 3 days and i don't think my lips are getting better so at the moment i'm just hoping for the best and expeting the wrost....=(

accident prone

wassup..update time..well life was kinda boring till today..guess what happened man..i was in an accident..not the kind where u fall on the floor cause someone left a banana on the floor..nope this was an accident kinda accident..to put in plainly i was hit by a motorcycle going at 40 km/hour..so yea..it HURTS..
here's how it went down..u see..i was going to ampang point..a local mall in well ampang..to go register my grade 7 practical exam see..n well all was fine..got there..registered..got out..went to popular to go look see a bit..decided not to buy anything cause i ain't got no cash..so i decide to go back..was waiting hapily at ampang point for a bloody taxi..apparently no taxi wanted to take me home so i decided to cross da main road(first mistake there) n go to the opposite side to get a taxi since all the taxis at the other side hated me so bloody much..so's i was walking..making sure it was a red light first..then i was walking and outa da blue this motorcyle comes outa nowhere and bangs me..next thing i know i was on the road with blood pouring outa my nose..and the guy who hits me says are you fine..and i for one second was going to hit him so hard in the place that matters that he was NEVER going to see sun light again..but i ended up saying i was fine..so he took me to a clinic and i got treatment there..
got to the clinic and got the doctor to examine me..he said i was fine cept for a couple of bruises a wonked right leg n a swollen lip..n i was like wokay..thats good..so he says go to the toilet n clean up den i'll give u some treatment..and so i went and there it was..my lips..i looked at it and thought there's gotta be something wrong with tha mirror..apparently not..so with a lip swollen 3 times its normal size and a bleeding nose he checked me up..i got a couple of shots some medication and i was off..when i called my dad he was like..an accident??clinic??okay..as cool as ya like..i was like wth man..i was hit by a motorcycle..then he came and picked me up..then he was like what happened to your lips..n i was like HELLO!!accident sound familiar??!!
got back home everything was fine till my mum called..man she was pissed..she went on complainin bout how careless i was and that it could've been much wrost and that i was lucky i wasn't hit by a car and that she should've waited for her to come back..then she asked how i was..and i said i had lips like angelina jolie's with an implant..it was a nervous laugh followed by more complaints..not that i don't know it could've got wrost and its not like i don't know that obviously the big guy likes me enough to save my ass..neways i'm fine now..except for a wonked right leg and an extra large lip..i wonder what u guys gonna call me when ya see me at school..i can imagine it..wassup..FAT LIPS??!! -.- '

in memory off..

loneliness is a very common word i'd say...bored "aiyo i sooo lonely la..no frens to tok to"..no money "aiyo..my dompet so lonely lah..no money to fren wif my dompet..belly depressing leh"..but i wonder what a lonely soul would say to its owner.."why am i alone..why doesn't anyone talk to me..isit cause i'm weird..what isit??".."why doesn't anyone bother about me..would it be better if i'd just die?? would it be better if i just cease my existance??"..we happy people don't realise it but there are lots of lonely people out there..people thinking about death every second of the day..we say "so??!! who cares??!! they don't wanna make friends their problem la"..but have we stopped and thought for a second it could be our fault probably..that we may have neglected them..subjected them to such unearthly and alien thoughts..thoughts which we happy people take for granted..i have..have you??
i once knew someone who suffered from the same problem..neglected by his parents neglected by everyone else in the world for that matter..he was a quiet kid..i can't say he was a nice kid or a kind one or a polite one cause i was one of the "them" always insulting him always in bully mode..i never really cared what the consequences were..and after i left primary skool naturally i lost contact of him..a few weeks ago..i had a reunion with some old buddies..when i asked about this boy they said he had died..i asked how and they said he couldn't take it no more..hung himself in school after one of the exams..i was shocked..i didn't believe it..but guess what..it's real..i didn't sleep for nights..i was scared that he would haunt me at first but i began to wonder..could i have done this to him..maybe if i just talked to him..maybe if i just had told my friends to just stop and just....
nasi sudah menjadi bubur..hmph..funny how that proverb just fits into the whole equation..i just want everyone to know that we are humans in every way possible and that we all deserve the same kind of treatment and the same kind of punishment..another persons food should not be anothers poison..don't make the same mistake i did..having a soul tell you that you might have caused his death..up till now i still think bout him and wondered what i coule have done and that guilt will probably never be forgotten but i will make it up to him i want to make it up to him thats why i wrote this blog..to hopefully save others like him by going straight to the source..if you're one of them please just stop, just stop..don't find out years later that you could have caused his death and live with that guilt please..