FAT LIPS!!!!

heys..i jus had the weirdest dream..wokay..so i was at home right after my unfortunate run in with the motorcycle and then my mum calls and says get ready cause were going to go play golf and i said i can't cause my legs screwed and my lips are fat as hell then she says "so what??!! just get ready and i'll pick u up in ten minutes" then suddenly i was in the golf course and i was teeing off the first hole when my dad says "don't you have school today??" and i says to him no..not till nxt monday..then he says "no u have school today!!" and the next thing i know i was in school in my golf attire..and then peter goes up the satge and says "and now we have our vice captain fat lip thomas lead us with the ikrar" and i went all blank for a second then keangston pushed me on the stage and i could see everyone laughing at me and mark tan was saying "yo fat lip thomas fasterlah..wan to rain already!!" then the whole school jus recited the ikrar without me and as soon as they were done it started raining and as i was about to go back to class steffie, lynn , elsa and all you guys said in unison "nice lips thomas!!" which btw was really freaky..then u guys giggled all the wasy back to class and before i knew it i was awake..
i actually have no comments about the dream except that it was uberly freaky and i'm still thinking about it now..i'm begining to think that the accident is begining to take an effect on my self esteem and believe me my parents aren't doing anything to improve that..my dad keeps telling me i look like a fish nad every meal time they ask "sure can eat ah??!!lips so bongkak like that not painfull meh??!!" *sighsighsighsighsigh* ahwell..school's in 3 days and i don't think my lips are getting better so at the moment i'm just hoping for the best and expeting the wrost....=(

accident prone

wassup..update time..well life was kinda boring till today..guess what happened man..i was in an accident..not the kind where u fall on the floor cause someone left a banana on the floor..nope this was an accident kinda accident..to put in plainly i was hit by a motorcycle going at 40 km/hour..so yea..it HURTS..
here's how it went down..u see..i was going to ampang point..a local mall in well ampang..to go register my grade 7 practical exam see..n well all was fine..got there..registered..got out..went to popular to go look see a bit..decided not to buy anything cause i ain't got no cash..so i decide to go back..was waiting hapily at ampang point for a bloody taxi..apparently no taxi wanted to take me home so i decided to cross da main road(first mistake there) n go to the opposite side to get a taxi since all the taxis at the other side hated me so bloody much..so's i was walking..making sure it was a red light first..then i was walking and outa da blue this motorcyle comes outa nowhere and bangs me..next thing i know i was on the road with blood pouring outa my nose..and the guy who hits me says are you fine..and i for one second was going to hit him so hard in the place that matters that he was NEVER going to see sun light again..but i ended up saying i was fine..so he took me to a clinic and i got treatment there..
got to the clinic and got the doctor to examine me..he said i was fine cept for a couple of bruises a wonked right leg n a swollen lip..n i was like wokay..thats good..so he says go to the toilet n clean up den i'll give u some treatment..and so i went and there it was..my lips..i looked at it and thought there's gotta be something wrong with tha mirror..apparently not..so with a lip swollen 3 times its normal size and a bleeding nose he checked me up..i got a couple of shots some medication and i was off..when i called my dad he was like..an accident??clinic??okay..as cool as ya like..i was like wth man..i was hit by a motorcycle..then he came and picked me up..then he was like what happened to your lips..n i was like HELLO!!accident sound familiar??!!
got back home everything was fine till my mum called..man she was pissed..she went on complainin bout how careless i was and that it could've been much wrost and that i was lucky i wasn't hit by a car and that she should've waited for her to come back..then she asked how i was..and i said i had lips like angelina jolie's with an implant..it was a nervous laugh followed by more complaints..not that i don't know it could've got wrost and its not like i don't know that obviously the big guy likes me enough to save my ass..neways i'm fine now..except for a wonked right leg and an extra large lip..i wonder what u guys gonna call me when ya see me at school..i can imagine it..wassup..FAT LIPS??!! -.- '

in memory off..

loneliness is a very common word i'd say...bored "aiyo i sooo lonely la..no frens to tok to"..no money "aiyo..my dompet so lonely lah..no money to fren wif my dompet..belly depressing leh"..but i wonder what a lonely soul would say to its owner.."why am i alone..why doesn't anyone talk to me..isit cause i'm weird..what isit??".."why doesn't anyone bother about me..would it be better if i'd just die?? would it be better if i just cease my existance??"..we happy people don't realise it but there are lots of lonely people out there..people thinking about death every second of the day..we say "so??!! who cares??!! they don't wanna make friends their problem la"..but have we stopped and thought for a second it could be our fault probably..that we may have neglected them..subjected them to such unearthly and alien thoughts..thoughts which we happy people take for granted..i have..have you??
i once knew someone who suffered from the same problem..neglected by his parents neglected by everyone else in the world for that matter..he was a quiet kid..i can't say he was a nice kid or a kind one or a polite one cause i was one of the "them" always insulting him always in bully mode..i never really cared what the consequences were..and after i left primary skool naturally i lost contact of him..a few weeks ago..i had a reunion with some old buddies..when i asked about this boy they said he had died..i asked how and they said he couldn't take it no more..hung himself in school after one of the exams..i was shocked..i didn't believe it..but guess what..it's real..i didn't sleep for nights..i was scared that he would haunt me at first but i began to wonder..could i have done this to him..maybe if i just talked to him..maybe if i just had told my friends to just stop and just....
nasi sudah menjadi bubur..hmph..funny how that proverb just fits into the whole equation..i just want everyone to know that we are humans in every way possible and that we all deserve the same kind of treatment and the same kind of punishment..another persons food should not be anothers poison..don't make the same mistake i did..having a soul tell you that you might have caused his death..up till now i still think bout him and wondered what i coule have done and that guilt will probably never be forgotten but i will make it up to him i want to make it up to him thats why i wrote this blog..to hopefully save others like him by going straight to the source..if you're one of them please just stop, just stop..don't find out years later that you could have caused his death and live with that guilt please..

so i'm back i guess...turkey was fine..and for god's sake don't ask me wether i bought back any turkeys..dude..no..ok..i didn't go all the way to turkey to get back some stinkin turkey which i can easily get at makro for far cheaper than that in turkey..*sigh* m'sians are getting stupider by the day..i've never been really good at writing blogs as u can see by the amount of blogs i've written, yet i don't really know why i keep still do it. kinda kinky if ya ask me..come to tthink of it we do lots of stuff we don't really wanna do no more but just do it...for the sake of doing it..just finished camp at tekam came back today..really tired ..cramped legs..headache..chest pain and every other physical oriented pain/sickness u can think off..and shit..i've got skool and shit i can't think of anythin else to write..so untill nxt time.....

life..sorta

so you sailed away..into a gray skyed morning..the mornings seem gloomier nowadays, but personally i like it, its kinda soothing, if ya know what i mean, maybe its cause i know for a fact that someone out there is sharing what i feel and i suppose the gloominess reminds me that we're only human and that there's always someone out there feeling as shitty as you are sometimes.
today was like any other day i suppose normal, and pretty depressing. i have tons of homework and an add math project to complete by mon, going to some remote place in the outskirts of m'sia tomorrow for my bio thing and definitely(no mistakes this time) not looking forward to it. i envy those who aren't coming(respect to the c class man, half the guys are palnning to boycot the trip*salutes*). interact meeting was allrite i guess, abit disapointed by the members but hey..whats new eh p.s. we finally had a meeting without zabedah there screaming her head off, got a couple of new projects coming up, that should be fun.
as for my prefect life, i'm telling everyone and i hope that everyone is clear bout this, i am NOT ON MOTHERFUCKING EARTH DATING KHAI WEN ,i'm sick of ppl coming up to me and saying "hows the head doing eh?!" pisses the fucking daylights out of me. who i like and what i like is none of your fucking business unless i make it.
right, now that thats taken care off, i suppose theres nothing much left to say, so untill next time..

merdeka blues

yes i'm back after some persuasion and a lot of nothingness i have finally decided to blog again and not let my blog site rot in cyber space which i was ooo so tempted to do^.^
skools not fine as many off you would tend to agree. save for the little bit of insanity we experience through mindless insults and throwing of pants that seem to be lying around in the class every now and then. just got elected as a v.cap, not lookin forward to next year, figuring out how on earth to juggle the interact club and the prefectorial board nxt yr is definately gonna be a whole lot of fun>.<
today we celebrated the hari patirotisme thingy. boring, as usual save the speeches by the students particularly the "sajak daniel chua". sharadah was fine i think, wasn't listening to hers, suelynn's..what can i say, good job matie considering the fact that you were shaking like hell on stage. we also had a couple of speeches by various teachers and as usual you hear the usual bunch of b.s on how they were once young and full of life and that we should learn how to appreciate merdeka more and that merdeka is more than a holiday. well news flash, it is only a holiday, a day where we just lepak in our house and not do anything unless you're like me whose parents are so persistant on you playing golf each time there is a public holiday.
besides the projects, the homework, the constant nagging of teachers on why thomaskohchongxi is not going to japan, the stress levels which seems to be getting higher day by day, and the exams, life is pretty sweet. so untill next time...

sick of it...

i'm sick of it..thats all i have to say right now..just sick of it..this maybe the shortest post you'll ever read but i'm just sick of it..and the best part is NOONE knows what i'm sick of..not like it bloody matters..i dont think you'd even wanna know what it is ..but..there you go..i'm sick of it..

LIFE...

heya..wasnt going to really blog..but i thought to myself..i'm on9..i still have about twenty minutes untill i hit the bed hmmm why not??so here i am after all=)..today was kinda gloomy..with the rain and all..personally..i liked the rain..for one the haze is gone finally*phew*now we all can breath without the fear of being intoxicated or dying of too much carbon monoxide entering our lungs..(booooo)..but back to school as usual(duh)..besides that..i think we all needed the rain..well at least myself..it was kinda relaxing..for one..i didnt have to play golf(lately the thought of playing golf has been *eiik* for me so...horay!!)..managed to also finish some of my work..and sorted out a couple of stuff out..also managed to save sometime for reminiscent which was kinda weird(wont go into details..=p)..*sigh* life has been sooo blardy hectic lately..with all the interviews..prefects farewell party..interact things..and other thing..and more thing..and than there's that thing..*sigh* and i thought form 4 was a breeze...ahwell..like some1 out of the balrdy blue sky decided to say(makes me think who it was and what must have hit him??..) life goes on..and on..and on..and so we live to see the next day again..untill next time..

ps..i'll try getting pics next time..

Rainy days and saturdays.....

ah saturdays..the most beautifull week of the week yet one of the most saddening..beatifull because i can just lepak in the house and noone would give a rats ass..sad because it passes so fast..the fact that morining turns to night at a 3 times the rate a normal ordinary day would kinda sucks..one minute your in your bed thanking god its finally saturday and the next youre infront of your computer complaining how fast the day went(ironic eh??)..today was no exception..i started the day quite good..woke up at 10..went down had my breakfast and watched some tv(bold and beatifull to be exact..what can i say..my mum's a fan)..then went to a friends house for a party(bevy's to be exact..leavin for london on wed..i think..how sad =( gonna miss her..)..had loads of fun there..meet new guyz..saw a couple of fimiliar faces..went for dinnner came back saw the opening game of the epl(mu vs everton..needlees to saw mu won..) and pOOf i'm here on my chair in front of my computer desk writing this..which reminds me..i havent done my homework..>.<..ahwell...what can i say...i love saturdays and i hate saturdays..but life goes on i guess..and at the moment its homework for me..this is it i guess..untill next time......
thomas..in and out=P(i'll try gettin some pics fron the party..)

TiLt

heya..its been very LONG LONG LONG time since i've blogged..pretty happy to find this site active and runnin i thought this site would definitely rot in cyberspace..but hey..it still lives*MUAHAHAHAHA*tons of stuff happened..got confirmed as a prefect..three cheers eh..i'm also the president of the interact club(foooyoooo)happy??i dunno..i should be right..RIGHT??yet i cant say i am..and no matter how much i try to sugar coat the truth it doesnt change a thing..the fact is i'm afraid..afraid of the responsibilities i hav to bear with me..i keep thiking to myself what if i slip up??what if i'm not up to expectation??what if i'm just a coward beneath all this skin??and the thought of it scares the balls outa me..basically(been usin dat word a whole freggin lot lately=P)i dunno basically what..as a leader youre supposed to show good examples and uphold your standards..and i just cant do that..i'm always not doing my work..i failed my moral test(got 2 out of 10...not very good...)and the fact that you are supposed to be the epitome of perfection is very scary..sometimes i fell like just giving up my positions..be a normal student ..but them i think back and remembered that when i was a student i dreamt of being at this position..a position where i can say that i am the best and now that i'm almost there.....haih..the delima's we face..and our parents call us immature...
ahwell...you know what they say..the show must go on..all we can do is pray(not much of a beliver myself but...) and hope that tomorrow will be better than today..=P

my own blog spot!!!

crazylicious..hehe...afta all da waitin n wonderin wat on freakin earth a blog was i finally created ma own blog. first of rite i'd like to say pigs can fly n rubberduckies rulzzz. rite since dis is ma first blog n considerin it is 1.17 am...excuse ma eccentricity not like it gets any betta neways i'm still tryin 2 figure thins out bout dis blog site. i'd be very happy 2 tell u dat i hav no idea watsoeva on how to use a blog..so if ya kind enough pls pls PLS TEACH ME!!hehe pretty desperate..neways i tink dis will do 4 ma first blog..hehe cant believe i actually made a topic out of nothin..hehe like ma baby pic??