Teachers are dicks. Just so you know. So i have a very distinct feeling that i did rather badly for math, either that or zabs is ignoring me for some apparent reason which i don't know. I don't think i did badly for math though, frankly i think i did rather well for math, but now i'm just not sure, either that, or, like i said, she's ignoring me for no apparent reason. You know it'd be fine if we weren't having our exams but now i'm just paranoid.

Yes!!!!Trials are ALMOST over, ALMOST i say. Still got bio 3 but thats really nothing much. And so starts the most dreadfull part of facing an exam, the results. Why do the teachers mark the papers so damn fast??!! Ah well better now than later. Over all it was alright i guess, although many would beg to differ. So thats that eh, next up, SPM.

I've decided not to go out and watch miami vice instead, i'ma stay at home and sleep. Funny, i was hell bent on going out after the trials a couple of weeks ago, but now, i just don't wanna. I think i've become some what isolated since the exams started.

So thats bout it really....btw i'm still very paranoid...i don't think i scrwed my math paper up...or did i?? The answer is yet to be revealed.....

I'm the only gay eskimo..

So, in the middle of the trials we are and 5 and 1/3 of the papers we have finished. Three days left we have till the misery is over. Okay so i clearly suck at this yoda thing but whatever. So everyone's pretty much in the trials frenzy. You got people proclaiming that their going to fail when we all know that their gonna pass, then we got people like shobahn. I think there wasn't a single paper in the whole of this week where he didn't sleep. I doubt that'll change come next week but hey ya never know...Personally i think i did alright. Not too bad really. I think i could've done better for add math but hey watcha gonna do. When you got people like WHYE LEON who only lost ONE MARK in his ENTIRE PAPER 2!!!!! *sigh**chokes random object* watcha gonna do. But all in all its pretty good. Got kimia n sej next week so it ain't over yet.

Personally i think this trials period has done some good for me. Its got me away from certain people and closer to others and it sorta changes you. Its given me space to think abit. Its ironic how in all the clattering and murmuring, i can find peace of mind. And in the midst of it, i've sorta come to a conclusion on a few things.

I still haven't decided what i'm gonna do thats gonna change my life after the trials but rest assure i'll think of something, mean while anyone wanna go out next friday?? I really wanna watch miami vice and quite frankly, i don't wanna watch it alone. Apparently its pretty good..

Well thats bout it, so till next time...

p.s
I'm the only gay eskimo,
I'm the only one i know,
I'm the only gay eskimo,
In my tribe....
-tenacious d-

haha..the song's damn funny man!!!!

O.o

TRIALS!!!!ARGH!!!!!=(((.....
Thats right trials baby, one and a half weeks of pure adrenaline rushing fun. Staying up till 1 in themorning cramming facts and data that would seemingly prove rather useless, to most of us anyway. Had add math paper 2, bm k2 and bio k1. Not too bad really. Add math was a bit of a killer (stupid sukatan membulat). I'm pretty sure i did my hukum linear and the other graph question correctly, can't say much bout my janjang though, but nevermind. Trials so far so good, but the wrost, yet to come. Man thrusdays gonna be one heck of a day.

Right, moving on, regarding my back drop, can't really do much bout it, rather i'm too lazy to do anything bout it, so i guess it stays, i'm sorry if you can't see properly..=(. Neways, came back super tired today, something bout exams, always get headaches after exams and nearly lost it and screamed at my mum. She kept pestering on how i have to score at least 6A's for my trials or something will happen. Something bout my cousin doing better or something like that. Note to everyone out there, when someone's trying to cramp bio and sejarah at the same time, NEVER lecture them on how well they need to do in the exams. Neways, i managed to walk away, so i'm relatively calm now.

So back to bio now, gotta study spermatogenesis and oogenesis...*sigh*..so i've decided that once the trials are over, i'm gonna do something drastic, potentially life changing, i don't know what yet, but mark my words, i will..muahahahaha!!!!
So till next time.....

Salute!!!So...i've come to a conclusion that one just can't stop thinking for even a micro second and achieve ultimate stoning bliss, either that or i just really haven't mastered the art of stoning. So, as usual, i've been thiking. What makes life, life?? What makes us, us?? Sounds rather retarded but seriously, think for a minute. What could we have possibly done to put ourselves in such a predicament? I have concluded that there are just too many factors that account for the outcome of ones "life". Too many variables. I sometimes wonder if it were feasible to pin point an exact moment in time and relate it to some occurance in your life. It'd be cool though, to just go back to that exact point in time and change it, impossible as it may sound. But on a more realistic note, its nice to just reflect on the choices we make sometimes. Contemplate on all the shoulda, woulda, coulda's. Why we fell in love or why we didn't, how we changed or how we could've.

On a lighter note, we had our interact farewell today. That's right, to all you interactors who didn't come tough luck man. It came really as a supprise. I honestly didn't expect it but, hey, it happened neways, so if any of you guys reading out there, thanks a bunch. It wasn't really much to brag about really, but then again the most beautifull things come in the simplest form. Had tons of pizza (ate 9 slices myself..personal best so far) so we ate till we can't eat no more. It was really nice of zabs really, despite the countless times i told her not to have it, she still made it happen. Another chapter closes, another is yet to open.

So its officially no longer emo month but study-up-late-till-u-get-baggy-eyes month. Yup, trials next week. Funnily, i don't really feel anything. Other than the very sian feeling that the exams are coming, i don't really feel much bout the exams, emotionless even. I guess its one of those querks. I tend not to feel stressed when i'm supposed to. I don't know wether thats good or not, but hey, thats me eh.

I've just realised that it's pointless to go to the prom, for me anyways.
1:i don't have a date, and no, i don't intend to ask anyone, and don't ask why
2: its totally over priced note, especially for those of us who don't have a date.
3:i just don't really feel up to it, i think i'ma take up that offer that lynnie made =)
But i can't help but feel sorry for sammie though. I mean after all, she organised the thing. I've heard quite a few people intend to botcott the event, cause, well, its expensive.

I've decided that during the hols, i'm gonna pick a week and go on a cross country trip to golok. I dunno whats it bout golok thats got me facinated, but i just really wanna go to golok. If any of you wanna join me your more than welcomed to p.s. virginity not guaranteed =)). So thats it from me for now, have fun studying guys and i'll see you in the exam hall =))).
So till next time.....

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE UNIVERSE!!!!!! hehe...So i've been around stoning as usual lately and i just realised that no one visits my site anymore..save a few souls, noone actually visits my blog anymore nowadays. I feel sad. Either that or you guys just drop by and refuse to tag, therefore i ask you aquestion, is it so hard to tag?? Just write a few words, even a simple hello would do, its not like your gonna write an entire essay.

It rained again today, and i didn't go to tuition agian today. Honestly, i dunno why i'm taking tuition classes anymore. Its not like i really need them. But i suppose if you've been taking tuition classes since standard 3 it kinda kicks in as a necessity. So i got a new pencil box. Well actually i got it sometime ago. To some of you this seems rather trivial, but i must tell you that i haven't changed my pencil box since i was in darjah 5. An extraordinarily long life for a pencil box eh. I just don't see the point in changing something that works. I mean, it works, why change it. Besides i've grown rather fond of my pencil box. Come to think of it, it has been through UPSR, PMR and (well pretty soon neways) SPM. Hah..take that you pencil box junnkies who change your pencil box so often that you spend more money on them then your underwear!!! I wonder if theres a place where they have professional pencil box fixers....do let me know if you find one.But inevitably, i will change my pencil box. I'm just waiting for the right moment, a significant moment, almost life-changing, like a tornado to hit my house, or maybe Bill Gates to give me a gazillion bucks. At this rate i'm gonna have to wait till my pencil box disintegrates and turns all powdery and stuff, but hey..ya never know.

So thats pretty much it...my 10 mins break is almost over and i'ma go back to bio now.So..till next time....

So so..

Okay, so i've been sitting on my chair staring at my com thinking of what to blog for ages now, and i guess i finally have something to blog about. I think, i don't know, i think i do, so i'll just get on with it. Right first things first, ARGHH DAMN ITS COLD IN MY ROOM!!! Right then. Okay, so i've been thinking alot lately and stoning lately and apprently not studying enough, but anyways, what would you do if you had to choose between your father or your mother? Quite frankly i don't know really. I've been having these really vivid dreams about death and really unsavoury things happening. Its really got me thinking. There's this dream where i was driving and i wound up at some ulu kampung and i knocked down an old man and he died. And i was running away from the kampung people who were looking around for me. Yea, i know sounds like some 3rd rate CSI show but it was much less funnier then it sounds. Sometimes i get the feeling that we just seem to exist, that were just part of the world, and if we go, it doesn't really matter, cause the world will go on and we'll just be replaced. Sometimes, were too consumed with the big picture that we eventually loose track of the little things, things that make life worth living for, things that make us real, that make us live instead of just existing.

I've been thinking about couples alot lately. Its great ain't it, to have someone to hold on too, to talk too, to share your thoughts with. But sometimes i wonder if its real. I mean, yea, i know your an item and all, but i seriously wonder what defines a couple?? I mean is just being together when we happen to see you in school or outside really enough?? Does hanging out together all the time count?? Intriguing eh?? I see so many couples, but i really question their level of commitment. I mean yea we all SAY we'd to just about ANYTHING for her (eh guys??) but do we ACTUALLY mean it?? We say so often that we LOVE her but do we?? Personally i think half you guys out there are just for show. To all you couples, don't come chasing me with a parang just yet, but ask yourself do you really love her?? Do you think of her all the time?? Do you regret every moment not spent with her?? Of course i'm not saying that everyone out there is faking it, but, well, u get the point.

So apparently zabs cried eh. Well i don't really know what to make of it and i will just leave it at that. She's a tough cookie to crack, and quite frankly, i don't wanna try. Right so back to the question, what would you do if you had to choose, mom or dad?? I've been thinking bout it for quite sometime now (and no..nothings wrong with me, my families fine), and i've come to a conclusion that if that happens i'd prolly just disown myself. Cause i think its easier to just be seperated then to just choose. Funny eh, i think its an 'only child' kinda thing. Not expecting any feed back from this Q n A but hey, feel free. I've noticed that a whole bunch of ppl have been feeling emo really. Els, lynn, Stef, and a whole bunch of other ppl which i don't really know but it was great reading ur blog neways =), and i think i'ma call this month "emo month"..yay!!

So thats about it, i've just realised that this may be the logest post i've ever written but hey, who gives a flying shit neways. So to all ya emo ppl out there, happy emo-ing. To all ya'll who haven't been infected yet, there's still 27 days. And to all ya'll emo ppl, if ya ever need someone to talk to i'm always free and i swear its not cause i want free gossip, but if ya really find that life sucks and ya need someone to talk to ( eh els..i sit next to you in case you forgot) find me, call me, CRY OUT MY NAME, and i shall answer..hehe..so till next time....

Okay, so i'm alive, apparently. So its been a while eh?? For my undying fans sorry to keep you waiting ; not that I have any but hey, who cares. Yup, its been i think round 4 months since my last blog. Talk about a hiatus eh. So i suppose my faithfull fans would like an explanation eh. Well you see, my computer has been busted for at least 3 months so that explains the most part of it, and as for the past month, i dunno, jus didn't really feel like blogging, but then again i rarely feel like blogging anyway, and i probably shouldn't cause of the trials and all that but what the heck eh; sides, its been a while.
So lets see, 'merdeka' i guess. I'm finally retired, both as a prefect and interactor, but then again once an interactor always one eh, same goes with prefects i suppose but hell i won't be doing any more assemblies or worrying about any more projects, so that must count as something eh. But honestly, its been a bitter sweet year for me. I've been put under alot of *&^%$$# lately but hey, i'm fine eh, just like how i always am. But yeah, we had the interact installation or farewell, depends on how you look at it and besides the sketch (SUUUPPPEEER LAME) it was alright i suppose(thanks dudes for da support, much love man), but zabs was at it again. For some reason she's been really, i won't say evil, but rather ignorant and childish towards me, thing is i don't really know why. Why?? Its really been bothering me lately. I mean i know i screwed up on thrus and all being late but seriously whats up?? One of those life mysteries i suppose, rather annoying if you ask me o.O. She should be like salfy man, learn how to detach. But neways, i suppose i can let it bother me much, besides she's teachin me maths. Wed was also moronic though. I had this entire speech writen in bm...BM!!! (thanks elsa for helpin) just to realise that i din't have to do it. WTF??!!! *annoyed* and best thing is they told me that i was supposed to be emcee instead. Yeah, fantastic, all he needs is one days notice, don't mind that i have trials and he has to study. But i suppose it turned out alright. At least fat P thanked me later.
Right with regards to the question posted on the previous post, i swear i wasn't talking bout my personal life and was merely posting a random question so as to see if anyone was ACTUALLY reading my blog, turns out people do read my blog and i am not i reapeat NOT in love or have a crush on any FORM 4 GIRL ( fantastic mates, i dunno where u guys come up with these random facts). Having said that i've recently realised that couples are springing up like bunnies in easter. I have a theory that i will not share with you as it may anger a few of you so i have decided to keep it to myself and have just realised that this line is totally useless but i'm too lazy to delete it so i'll just let it stay, but if you are interested just ask me, i'd be more than happy to share it with you. Anyway, the prom hype has really kicked in eventhough the trails haven't even begun. I mean everywhere, you hear people wanting to ask this dude out or have already asked. I suppose it shouldn't bother me but somehow it does. Something about not wanting to wind up alone i suppose, come to think of it, its pretty scary not to mention rather pathetic.
Well guess thats about it. Its been a pleasure blogging again and i suppose you can expect more frequent blogs in shorter time spans, i hope. Before i go, i'd like to give a shout out to all ya new and old love birds, you know who you are, and quite frankly so do i, may you always cherish the person next to you and may you never let anything come between you and let the shadow of loniness cover your souls. Cherish every moment and enjoy every second for you never know when it might end. To you aspiring love heads, there's enough drama in the school, don't you think so??