Greetings from the land down under again but with a twist.....

i have net connection once again...FINALLY!!!!!!

geez...i tell you net here is so mafan to get,

i had to lie to get one,

so strict right,

in malaysia the stupid malau's say cannot cause got no line,

here the sakai's say cannot cause i not old enough,

ni a made..kaninia laubu la ci bai kia...

ok...

the important thing is i got net connection,

so i can chat and download again,

*sigh*

i hate the stupid plans here,

400 mb for a month and $84.90,

thats a lot of money ok,

somemore not broadband,

so i got to monitor how much i use,

so far i'm up to 50 mb......wtf??!!!

all i did was go visit blogs...

blogs also use 50 mb already....'-.-...

Neways autumn is coming,

which means brown leaves and loneliness,

a bit melodramatic eh,

i like the brown leaves,

something bout leaves turning brown,

i think its kinda sweet,

autumn also means that my parents are coming,

.................

they're coming this friday,

not excatly autumn la,

but close enough,

....nothing much to say bout them la really,

so lets juts leave it at that.

So i heard bout lynn and ming eh,

never met this ming guy but he seems like a nice guy,

so i suppose he's a real catch eh,

so i guess i bid you guys a good luck tough i'm pretty sure lynn'll never read this since somehow she never seems to read my blog,

or she does and just never tags or she does but doesn't want to tag cause.....i don't know why...

I guess thats bout it for now really,

i just realised there's a 3 hour difference,

no wonder noone's online,

neways...yea...so till next time..

p.s. ok...the blogskin is annoying, maybe i'll change

Michelle, my pal,

These are words that go together well,

My Michelle

-Michelle-

-the Beatles-

damn nostalgic la....

Chinese new year was shit.
It was hot, it was dry and it was sooo balrdy boring.

I had lunch with ny aunt during cny,
to get there i had to meet my aunt in china town,
china town+cny=FUCKING PACKED!!!!!
It was so packed its not funny,
i tell you these aussie-chinese are..........!!!
i fell sad,
neways got to my aunts and had lunch there,
we had crab, a bit of lobster, some steam boat...
ok la, not that bad after all,
the food was good, i tell a lie..the food was FREAKING AWESOME!!!
but what do you expect coming from a family with 3 chefs and all happen to be there at the same time,
too many cooks don't spoil the soup...sometimes,
then the night before (i know a bit siao going backwars) i had dinner with my cousin in some restaurant in Franklin St somewhere in town,
ok la...not too bad but the sunday lunch was sooo much better,
mmmm....lobster and crab.....

NOW lets talk about AIMAN'S GAZILLIION DOLLAR SUPER UBER COOL APARTMENT!!!!
yup...aiman has a GAZILLION DOLLAR SUPER UBER COOL APARTMENT!!!!
I met up with aiman and ailin the other day,
and i was whole heartedly complaining to aiman who btw looks pretty damn...strange..sorry! about the terrible heat wave when he starts smiling at me,
then i told him my apartment had no air conditioning and no fan,
and then he smiled wider,
then i asked about his apartment...BHKJGLUK&*(^*(_%f(pg(_!!!!!!!!!!!!
So me and ailin decided to pay his apartemnt a liltle visit,
its like i stepped into a pent house man..
you've got all these cool sorta modern sculptures which obviously he doesn't use,
he's got TWO toilets with one ENSUITE,
he's got an INBUUILT AIR CONDITIONNING!!!!
AND FOXTELL!!!
NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
foxtell=100 channels=football=mtv=100 x better than astro!!!!!!
AT LEAST he don have his PS2..if not i'd have killed him there,
I shouldn't have went to his apartment, cause i didn't want to leave,
good thing is he's leaving in april, XD..
which means i get to bunk in his apartment XDDXDXDXD...
foxtell+aircond=XDXDXDXDXDXDXD!!!
so after watching thats so raven in aiman's apartment,
me and ailin left and i went back to my crummy apartment,
rather sad, actually very sad,
my place no fan(just got one so...now got) no aircond, no foxtell, no net connection,
its a sad excuse for an apartment...

I've enrolled myself in the taylors soccer club,
its sorta a means of making myself loose weight,
although here, you never loose weight,
but i'ma make that change i tell you....
once i come back i'ma be thin,
and muscular,
and.......cool XD (yup thats right beve...i've decided to loose weight)

So anyway thats bout it,
there are tonnes of m'sians here btw,
and prisham do you have a cousin named yakshinni or something like that who lives in s'pore?
AND!!!!
SELAMAT TAHUN BABI!!!

This wednesday sucks.

School ended at 3 today,
it was pretty alright,
i had two math then a 1 hour and 25 minute break then chem,
in all honesty the day was....alright,
nothing special happened,
it was rather boring,
boringer than usual,
maybe its just math,
i mean an hour and 25 of math is enough to kill someone,
i had double that,
or maybe its chem,
50 minutes everyday's good enough, and now an hour and 25...bely da boring man..
but then maybe its something else.....

I just realised that i don't have a nail clipper,
i've been letting my nails grow to a rather disturbing lenght and it ain't pretty,
i've also just realised how annoying my mum can be,
a couple of weeks ago i told her i can't come back for CNY,
she says why, which is fair enough,
i said i have SAC's,
she says so?!,
i said its important and that it counts as part of my final marks,
she says....oh...okay....change the date la...
i said(trying to be calm) cannot...
she says why?!
well you get the picture...
so anyways, i had to go pester the teacher to write a letter saying i have SAC's so she can get it to the airline company so that they'd refund the money.....
then i had to courier the bloody letter and the ticket back to Malaysia which cost $40,
which isn't cheap in case your wondering,
and i had to walk around the city for an hour before i found a courier office,
and all this cause i can't comeback and all this cause she "thought" i had holidays on CNY,
i mean i love her and all that but she a bit luan la sometimes...
now i've gotta get her wild yam cream (god knows what that is)
from some shop which is practically the other side of town. *sigh*
i dunno la...its a bit the what la i can't explain....

So its valentines day eh,
there was this really crazy news here,
apprently this dude bought a house as a valentine's day present,
the dude actually had the house wrapped up and he took his fiance via the helicopter to go see the house,
not bad eh,
but generally valentines day here's pretty boring,
i went out for lunch just now and i saw a couple of guys holding boquet of roses waiting,
i wonder whether the roses ever got to the person,
anyways, valentines day, i think is pretty pointless,
it gets people so worked up,
and guys are expected to just do all these things,
so gut wrenching...
it makes me sad la in a way,
i so lonely,
takde orang to say happy valentines day too,
i think i'm just bitter.

Neways thats bout it now really,
Happy Valentine's Day guys,
if you are lonely, may you be lonely no more,
and if oyu are loved, may you be loved even more

btw...i know she won't read this but happy valentine's day

Liverpool kalah!!!!!!

Aiyo!!!!

I turn on the tv, and i saw........
Newcastle Utd vs. Liverpool: 2-1

Aiyo....so sakit hati,
after a month wihtout football then suddenly...out of the blue...liverpool kalah...wah piang!!!

Neways its been pretty boring really,
i wake up at 7.50 every morning except weekends and weds,
i leave for school at round 8.10 ish..
i reach school at 8.40 after WALKING for 30 minutes,
i reach school slightly exhausted,
spend about 6 hours at school,
walk ALL THE WAY home again..another 30 minutes,
then watch tv till 11,
then go to sleep.

All in all not very interesting really,
there isn't much homework too so basically i'm done in an hour,
mostly on specialist math cause its FREAKING CRAZY!!!!
then i pretty much stone,
in fact its so boring here i've got no idea what to blog about....so..lets talk about ESL

ESL or english as second language is a course taken by the slightly impaired language wise,
the class is made primarily of chinese people who speak chinese,
ok..basically its a pretty boring class la,
and its also my last lesson of the day, except on weds...sometimes....
and to be honest i have no idea what i'm doing there,
one night, i was sitting on the couch right,
then i thought to myself,
why am i in ESL?
i mean, i speak good english,
i wirte pretty well,
so why am i in ESL??
i honestly don't know,
i mean no offence but the kids there, their english sucks,
the teacher's there right,
he's asking us all these questions and i'm answering all of them,
now there's gotta be something wrong there....right?
neways apparently its easy to score in so i guess i'm sticking to it.

*sigh*
I still don't have net connection in my apartment,
My mum is REALLY ANOYING!!!!!!!
I've gotta go finish my specialist math,
And.......I'M BORED!!!! SOMEONE PLEASE COME TO MELBOURNE AND VISIT MEEEE!!!!!!!
*post melbourne stress*
so till next time....

p.s this year no ang pow X(((

Wasssup ya'll,
I hail thee again from the land of the "g'day mates!!",
i know its been a while and what can i say,
i still don't have a net connection and setting one up here costs a bomb,
sooo...i've resorted to doing all my bloggings in the school's com lab till further notice,
so school eh,
its fine i guess,
there are a few m'sians here,
mostly from penang,
i don't know why from penang but they're from penang,
there's nothing much to shout about the school really,
its a college,
there are tonnes and i mean TONNES of chinese from china,
they speak chinese(obviously) and nothing else really,
and you know la, there england is so powderfull,
for some really awkward reason i was put in ESL i.e. english as second language,
i was suppose to change but i couldn't be bothered really,
the class is pretty slow,
cause the teacher keeps stressing on the words and the meaning and some words are pretty obvious and its soooo annoying sometimes but meh...

So i've officially moved into the apartment,
its alright i guess,
its pretty lonely at night but i'll be fine,
food's not really a prob but of course you pay for what you get lo...

I've finally decided not to come bcak for CNY..
too ma fan,
cause i've got no breaks for cny and i also got this assestment shit smack in the middle of cny,
so sorry mates.

So far its been pretty boring,
cuase i haven't had to make friends for soo long you kinda forget how,
so pretty much i'm alone,
with not really anyone to talk to,
i suppsoe thats alright really,
i mean i've got cheng lee but i hardly see him anyways,
and ailin and aiman of course,
but i haven't seen them yet.

Thats bout it really.....unfortunately my msn is non existant cause i don't got no net connection at home..so till next time....

Good day, mates!!

Greetings, i hail thee from the land of the "Good day mates!",
so far its been pretty fine i guess, i don't miss home as much as i thought i would really,
prolly cause i'm staying at my aunts for a while, which is family, which is sorta a compensation,
but the real adventure starts next week really, when i move in my appartment so that should be a joy to watch,
so far adjusting has been pretty alright,
i have this theory that the less you expect the better things will turn up for you,
so far, it seems to be working,
people here are soso i guess,
normal's the word i suppose, just that there are more ang moh's than in malaysia (gee..i wonder why??!!) and they smoke a lot,
i mean A LOT,
they love their ciggs so much that the first thing you smell after you exit the terminal is tobaco,
and after 8 hours in a freaking plane with an inconsiderate IDIOT sitting in front of you,
the last thing you REALLY need is for those foul gasses to intoxicate you,
i swear by the rate their going they'd all be dead when they reach 50.

I've been left alone in the house for the week cause my aunt and all the little ones are going on a vacation to Lawn, which is somewhere in australia,
they asked me to come but i humbly declined,
personally, going on a trip when i just got here=not a very good idea,
so i stayed back and i have the whole house to myself,
which is great and all but i have NOTHING TO DO!!!!,
*sigh* all i've been doing is watching the aussie open all day, and i mean all day.......
which is why i have nothing to blog about which is why i'm blogging about this.

ANYWAY i suppose thats about it really,
school starts next wed, and i got orrientation on tues so hopefully i'll have something to blog then, so untill next time.....

p.s. i tried to tell her but alas i failed miserably, i still wish i did but i guess we'll never know...but how is she btw?

So it ends, my time here in malaysia is coming to a close, 9 more hours till my flight,
what lies ahead, a new chapter of my life, its weird, i've been picturing this moment for a long time now,
since i was form 1, i somehow knew i was going to end up in australia, melbourne in partucular,
when i didn't leave for melb in form 3 my hopes and aspirations were dampened for a bit,
but now, its a whole different ball game.

Went to sam+rach's birthday party on saturday, it was alright,
as opposed to the 80 odd that sam invited i think only round 30 came at most,
but it was alright, we still had fun, at least they did, i was more stoned than anything really,
something to do with the going away,
got to meet quite a few poeple and exchanged a few goodbye's and good luck's,
i really wonder if i'll ever see any of them ever again,
prolly not,
but there was one thing i really regreted though, then again maybe not,
i should've told her eh,
prolly ages ago,
but i chickened out,
i guess i am a chicken,
i suppose beve was right,
i am a big ass chicken (among the other things she so blatantly called me).

Ah well, regrets i've had a few eh,
well thats bout it, 9 more hours till take off, so till next time, form melb this time.....

Cause we are gonna be,

Forever you and me,

Always keep it flying,

High in the sky.

-High-

Lighthouse Family

As the lrt came up to the station, i couldn't help but feel the anxiety,
as adrenalin pumps through my body,
i stepped out, and i felt a distinct feeling,
a feeling i haven't felt in a while,
i took the escalator down, just like i had done hundreads of times before,
i could hear their merry voices,
laughing away,
and as i approached the building,
i noticed something,
something rather awkward,
almost wrong,
the building i spent so much time in,
is now......ORANGE!!!!

I went back to school the other day, i must say, it looks pretty nice,
the new block isn't quite done yet but its really taking shape,
they basically moved all the upper sec to the new block and now the form 3's n 2's are occupying the old new block, the really old block houses all the little ones with all their little things,
its pretty weird really, its like stepping into a time zone,
i actually still a bit stiff when i walk into the office,
its like a freaking presence man,
btw, the office had a face lift man, they moved it to the new new block,
and their doing renovations on the old block now.

It was pretty cool walking down the hallway again,
very nostalgic, its like deja vu all over again,
i had a few weird glances from the students,
it took them a while to figure out who i was, must've been the hair cut =),
even hayats and leong had to stare at me for a while,
talked to a couple of people, the prefects look pretty slick i must say,
they're new unifrom is sooooo much better than ours,
CURSES!!!

I had a nice chat with Pn. Noor,
she's still Pn. Noor, still telling me bout the prefects and all the mishaps and the shit that happens within the prefect's,
i sat in for the interact meeting,
it was sooo freaking funny, i walked in as Zabs was scolding them, then she seemed to potong steam for a while,
they've already selected the form 4's which i must say is really fast,
its really funny seeing zabs scold the form 4's, so surreal, brings back fond memories =),
stayed back a while to talk to zabs,
she was telling me how all the teachers are all scattered now,
like jamaliah and haslina moved out of the tudung gang's fortress,
and how the interact club is giving her so much trouble...where have i heard that before eh...

Left school at around 5 ish,
i must say, it was really a trip down memory lane,
its nice to see the school's changing for the better,
it looks much better than when i came in 6 years ago,
i still miss the school a bit i guess,
just a little bit,
at the corner of my heart =)

So thats bout it for now really, i've gotta pack!!!!
so till next time....

p.s. 4 days and counting =S

Your voice echoes through my head,

Its been a while since i thought of you,

But how unforgettable your voice is,

So resounding,

So loud,

Oh! How unforgettable your voice is.

I went shopping yesterday for what else..underwear.

I'm proud to say that i have more than enough underwear to last me for 3 WEEKS even WITHOUT having to WASH ANY =), and i have to thank my personal bank account i.e. my mum for everything =)

So i went out to ampang point again today for a different reason obviously, i wanted to see whether any one of the 3 electronics shops can repair an i pod, unsuprisingly none of them could, i'm begining to wonder whether investing on an i pod is really worth it.

FIRSTLY: 940 bucks a pop for a nano 4GB=not very cheap seeing as the zen's 4GB player is 700++

SECONDLY: there's no legal waranty but you have to get it online, how inconvinient is that!

THRID: once the battery dies, as in really dies, your freaking screwed, i mean there's no freaking way you'd be able to get it to work agian except by wiping out the memory and redownload ALL your songs.

FOURTH: you can't ABSOLUTELY can't repair it UNLESS you go to a stupid apple center

*)_(JJHJ^i*^*&^$vjkf^do^de&(%UJGYPI!!!!!!

So anyway, i went to the shop right and i ask this guy, so he says no, but he says you can go to great eastern mall cause there's an apple center there, so i says okay and thanks,

so i walk myself down the floors and i'm heading towards the door right then i think to myself,"Hey, your not busy, you've got time PLENTY of time right, seeing as you got SOOOO MUCH TIME just go to great eastern mall la!!", so i hop into a cab and says to him,"Great Eastern Mall please!!", so i get my ass there paid about 4 bucks and i walk in, so i go straight to the receptionist and i says," Excuse me, where's the apple center?", she stares at me, then she says,"Sorry, we had one but not anymore", BKIO%*&%*^%#eipoufvb!!!!

So anyway, i decided since i got myself there anyway, i might as well stay,

honestly its a pretty dead place, there's really nothing much there, there's a couple of restaurants, starbucks, a few sports shop, a couple of hair dressers and thats bout it, there's hardly anyone there really, personally i think its all really a waste of space, but hey thats just personally, i got myself a frappucino (i think thats how you spell it) and got back,

i suppose i'll try low yat plaza next but meh, abit too lazy to get my ass there.

Was talking to ailin a couple of days ago and i've finally decided on what to get sam and rach, no its not underwear altough that would've been a wicked idea if i had the guts to go into a shop and get ladies lingirie but something more conventional and edible, so 3 guesses to what it is eh.

On another note, i went out with rach, ailin, adam, xilin and hanna the other day and we were fussing on what to watch when adam came up with the greatest idea, instead of bickering on what to watch we'd lat it out, we eventually watched pathfinder, which was a crappy show, but the action sequences where pretty good but anyway, don't watch it in a cinema unless you want blood and more blood and gory scenes, it was funny though cause the girls kept going "OOOHHH O.O" and "NOOO" when someones limb gets chopped off, oh and of course i swallowed a gum, lovely fun eh.

So thats bout it really, i'm still rotting at home, but i'm going back to school tomorrow..wOOhOO,

so till next time....

p.s. 6 days and counting

I feel like a sinking ship, slowly taking in water, too slow for anyone to realise but steady enough.

I was siting around in the buggy in the middle of the golf course today halfly reminising on my really lousy golf game, suddenly, i thought of timothy(quek kai liang-timmy old boy-the one thats in my class which is also a librarian, although you'll prolly never read this hi matie!) and i thought to myself what would he be like in the next 10 years, prolly slightly thinner, shorter hair, grad from med school doing his internship,
then i thought about alex and i saw him as this dude prolly working in some hotel organising dinner functions and all those pretty little gala events you see on tv,
then i thought of what i would be like in 10 years...and i went blank...

Its a scary prospect thinking about your own future, when it comes to other people's its easy, you just say "aw he's gonna be a soso" but to yourself, not that easy, i sometimes think about what i'd be in 10 years, mostly wishful stuff, dreams and hopes.

Starting to pack, *Finally!! what my mum said when i told her*, i've realised that i somehow don't have enough underwear...not a very good prospect especially if your living alone for 9+ months, so i'm gonna go out shopping tomorrow to get me underwear!! and other items which are essential to me, but my ipod's still screwed!! *sigh* i suppose i've gotta get it fixed but where??!!..no apple electronic outlets near my house..*double sigh*

I suppose thats bout it really, i still have to finish packing so till next time...btw wat should i get sam and rach?? suggestions??

Close your eyes,

Dry your tears,

Cause when nothing,

Seems clear,

You'll be safe here,

From the sheer weight,

Of your doubts and fears,

Weary heart,

You'll be safe here.

I was wondering, maybe i'll get one of those bean couches when i get to melbourne, the kinds where you can just sink into and sorta feel like your sorta drowning but in a good way.

Only 10 days till i leave, on a concious level, i am sorta ready,

actually i've been ready for quite sometime now, just waiting on the days to pass really, the thing bout me is you build this sense of detachment,

it happened when i left as vice cap and resigned as pres of the interact club, and you find that you disassociate yourselves from these things rather quickly, if you were me la anyways, i don't know whether its a good thing or not but it just is, it happens all the time, like when people are crying over leaving school and not seeing their friends i didn't really bother, happened in primary school, and its happening again.

Sometimes i wonder why it happens, how can we just let go so easily,

how can i let go so easily, sometimes i don't want to forget and i want to feel what its like to really care for someone or thing and not want it to leave, meh, then again maybe not, sometimes i see people crying when

others leave and to a certain extent i get it, but otherwise i don't,

maybe its cause of the lack of closeness the "no clique" policy that i seem to have, meh, thinking too much again.

Neways i went out with prisham and adam on tues, we watched the guardian, to be honest it was pretty alright, much better than i expected it to be, i wouldn't say its the best la but its pretty alright,

whether its cinema worthy or not its totally subjective, if you like ashton kutcher and seeing his body then go ahead otherwise just get the dvd.

Personally, i just wanted to leave the house, a man can only watch so much tv, got to talk and hang abit which was good,

we ran into carmen while we where there, apparently she's working in a häagen-dazs shop somewhere which was cool, if only she'd tell me where..then i could get free ice-cream =D..mmmm...free ice-cream=D=D.

This actually reminds me of another topic but maybe next time,

neways next on the list: pack pack pack...

I was thinking of really decorating my room when i get there, maybe a couple of sofa's maybe a cofee table, a few lava lamps maybe, meh,

then again i'd prolly be to busy lazy, i've been sorta prepping myself,

basically reading the o levels and a levels books, i tell you the physics is crazy man, what we do here is shit compared to the sums the singaporeans do, no wonder they're so bloody kia su, and boyle's law and charles law (more commonly know as hukum boyle dan charles) is in chem, *sigh* i tell you the malaysian edu system....indescribable.

Neways i think thats bout it,

i'll be going to sam's and rachel's praty so thats bout the last time i'll be here till prolly october (just so ya know =D)

When the light dissappears,

And when this worlds insincere,

You'll be safe here,

When nobody,

Here's you scream,

I'll scream with you,

You'll be safe here.

-You'll be safe here-

Rivermaya

Greetings and salutations, i'm back again.

I've been rather busy lately, actually not really la but somewhat busy.

I was back in johor bahru last week for my granpa's 80th birthday, it was a pretty big occasion cause pretty much everyone came,
even my aunt form asutralia came and she brought along her little kids,
actually there not little, actually they're pretty big, actually they're really big, then you got people form s'pore then some from kl, dinner was pretty good but nothing special really, just chinese food,
i COULD put pictures but i'm just to damn lazy..XD.

Just read sarah's blog and i totally agree with her, sometimes we just get caught in a what to say situation,
i mean you want to console your pal but you just don't know how,
then you start thinking what if i say something that might make it worse,
then you start thinking of something else to say,
and then you decide not to say something,
and by the time you decide to say something, he's already alright...
i suppose thats why i don't talk much when someone complains to me.

So everyone's off to college now, at least most of us are,
i feel kinda lonely,
the other day i was in jb and looked at my watch and realised it was 2.30 on a thursday, then i realised that i would be having zab's class if i were at school,
thats when it hit me,
i don't have shool anymore,
at first i felt a sense of liberation but then i realised i missed school,
then i remembered that i do have school,
just at a different place with different people in a foreign land,
and the more i think bout it the more it scares me,
the fact that i'd be alone for 10 months scares me even more,
plus i'm not ready yet, i haven't even got what i need yet..=S

I think australia will really be an experience for me,
not only cause i'm gonna study everything in english,
but cause i'll be alone for 10 months,
you want independence, this is it man,
it don't get any better than this,
prepared or not i'm definitely leaving so...

Well thats that for now..btw I have NOT LEFT YET...
I AM LEAVING ON THE 22 OF JANUARY..22 OF JANUARY 2007!!

Christmas is red, but i am blue

I've been fine.

People've asked me why do i blog so sparsely then suddenly start blogging so often,
the answer is i don't know, to me blogging is about writing something meaningful and worth sharing instead of just ranting,
of course then there's also the fact that i'm too blardy lazy half the time la but that hardly counts.

So neways, we had prom a couple of weeks ago,
i must say, i've done lots of thinking about prom, and finally decided that it was pretty alright, i know some of you think it rocks and it was the best time you ever had and possibly ever will for the rest of your short or long lives but hey, bear with me,
i just imagined my prom slightly different,
i gave my speech, noone cried but then again with half the people talking while i was giving the speech i gave up a liltle.

So christmas's here, the time where it's better to give than it is to recieve,
meh..frankly i like receiving and i like it to stay that way,
but lately i find christmas rather lame, or stiff.
I mean its nothing like it used to be,
i mean yea..we get together and have a meal and go for mass, thats right,
i only go to chruch twice and christmas is one of them,
what happened to the thrill and excitement, some how i don't feel it anymore, christmas has become just another day of the year, boring,
and when i look back i feel kinda sad,
i want christmas to be like in the movies, magic, mystery, santafied,
meh..i guess it'll never happen, i think i've officially out grown christmas.

Balik kampunged this christmas to JB,
the flood is really bad btw, its pretty much flooded pretty bad along the highways, i even saw these kids pissing in the water cause their house was flooded..=S..
we had bbq, it was alright, didn't really do much, sat round, ate a bit, watched tv, then went back.

I have approximately 30 more days till i leave for Melbourne,
i don't know if i'm ready yet or not,
i want to leave,
but with a heavy heart,
there are so many things i haven't said,
maybe it'll never be heard.

So merry christmas guys and till next time...

Post SPM!!!

Its over!!!

Yup thats right baby!!
No more freaking exams for me, well at least till next year.
I haven't quite figured our what to do with my books yet, i know i'm definitely burning the papers, but books...not so sure, my conscience tells me not too but then again i don't listen to my conscience much so..
I've realised now that SPM's over, i'm actually quite bored. Honestly, i've got nothing to look forward too, i mean, i'm never gonna go futsal unless they have it in Ampang or Aiman suddenly decides to give me a lift,
watching a movie seems rather vague, maybe when eragon comes out,
hanging out is just really hard cause lets face it, everyone else lives somewhere besides Ampang, sides i doubt anyone wants to hang with me.

I find it rather ironic, that in the 5 years i've been in school i've never really belonged or been assosiated to with a clique, or maybe secretly i am but am utterly oblivious and unaware of it,
which would make me a very ignorant little boy,
but for as long as i remember, i haven't, unless the world has flipped and left me on its underside,
i've never been in petty clique arguements or gossips, but i suppose its a good thing, but then again it depends on how you look at it, i mean its good in a sense that you don't get tangled up in unnescessary mess,
but then we tend to miss the closeness and the knowing that we can depend on people who'd always be there,
maybe somethings are just meant to be missed.

Celebrated freedom today by watching Casino Royale.
I must say its pretty good, so much has been said bout Daniel Craig and his acting but i find him to be pretty good,
one of the best bonds in fact,
he's got the pompous, cold hearted, idontgiveashit kinda look,
but he also shows some vulnerability and i think thats whats been lacking in most bond flicks,
the plot in my opinion is slightly retarded, but the action scenes make up for it, definitely a grittier film then its predecessors,
i'd definitely recomend it whether you're a bond buff or not,
also one to be seen in the cinema.

"Vodka martini"
"Shaken or stirred?"
"Do i look like i give a damn!"

I had a rather interesting conversati0n with Shawn in the train regarding what i should do with my hair for prom,
according to him, i should consider "making it all stand",
hmm..not too sure bout that but considering,
despite his rather sinister reassurance that the idea would prove to be quite good, i'm not too sure bout it,
i suppose we'll just have to be suprised, decisions decisions decisions...

Vesper Lynd: That's why i'm going to keep my eyes on the money and not on your finely toned arse.
Bond: You noticed.

I was studying, like any good boy +)..
then i realised....TWO MORE MOTHER !@()^&#&^& DAYS!!!!*inhales and exhales rapidly and suddenly remembering that hormon adrenalina causes sudden excitement and anxiety*

So i'm pretty psyched now, seriously can't wait, even my freaking hands are sweating just thinking bout it, so tommorows the 7th day my grandpa passed, there's gonna be a 7th day rememberance,
or something likedat, apparently it takes 7 days for the soul to reach its destiny, my mum was pretty fascinated by the whole ordeal,
apparently they had a whole bunch of chinese opera people at the furneral for 5 days i think,
they were supposedly displaying his life, how he got to be who he was and all that stuff, i was rather intrigued cause i don't remember that happening when my granduncle passed, its really interesting how different cultures have different ways of celebrating the dead,
my mum said i should've gone but i kinda scorned at the idea, but then again it might've been a good idea.

Btw to my very few and rather phethetic audience, ai lin and rachel are back with a brand new trip.
Yup, its Cherating and its haapening on the 27-30 of December.
She says not to ask who's coming but we have to pay a downpayment of 100 bucks by Prom night.
More details will come soon.

Btw, i bought the new MCR album,
and i TOTALLY ROCKS!!!
love it to blits man, its much better than they're last album, slightly less heavier on the melody but very deep lyrically, i think they're best by far.
I realise that there are just so much crap out there nowadays,
on one corner you've got the rappers with cheap girls and blings and "sparklies", ever notice how repetative the entire ordeal is, flinging money and girls shaking booties, i honestly don't know how that works,
then you've got girls trying to sell their bodies, *sigh*...

Well thats that for now,
must be studying my bio now,
eventhough detest towards the subjects all i feel,
but,
the book calls,
as guilt sets in,
i must leave,
so till next time....

Cause the hardest part is leaving you-cancer,mcr

So long grandaddy

So its been more than a month.

I've been fine, incase you were wondering,
SPM's coming to an end, thats always good i guess, biology to go and thats that as they say,
as for those taking bk or econs sorry, not my problem,
i think i'ma burn my books and all the papers after SPM, just for the fun of it,
i was going to say throw the ashes in the sea but then i realised that the sea is relatively far from where i live, but still.

My grandpa passed away,
old age they say, 90 y.o. i think,
pretty long age eh, but sometimes i think, do you really have to live till your 90,
i've always thought it was just as excuse, prolonging the enevitable fact of death,
but hey, i could be wrong,
he passed on monday, round 7.30-ish i think,
i was trying to think of some fond memories i could remmeber him by, but i struggled,
cause nothing much came up, all i remember doing was calling out to him, "le ho bo?"-are you alright in teochew, then he'd mumble something which i always tought was unaudible but understood was a yes, but then again thats just the way he was,
a quiet man, but i suppose he was a nice man, maybe even kind, but i guess i never really knew,
will i miss him? i don't know, but you come to admire chinese culture really, we remember the person not by mourning but by celebrating, hence thats why we play cards and joke about when were supposed to cry, ofcourse we cry, but then we also laugh,

The trips are all pouring in, everyone's trying to set up trips here and there, in all honesty its all in vain if you ask me, but hey, whatever makes them happy eh,
i've also got my little trip thing going on but i doubt anyone wants to go to golok with me,
but its all good, i suppose it'll be another boring holiday coupled by another year of gruelling hardwork and tiring exams, sigh, but so is the life of thomas,
i've deicided that i'ma go on a road trip one of these days, maybe mexico, that'd be nice,
i suppose for now i'll have to settle for afternoon with friends and movie dates,

Well, thats it for me, be joyous guys!! SPM'S ALMOST OVER!!! Its so FREAKING CLOSE I CAN TASTE IT!!!! Taste kinda salty, and kenny might agree, till next time..

ps.
you HAVE to watch the latest KFC chicken ad, FREAKING FUNNY!!!
i was luaghing for 20 minutes watching that stupid ad, damn lame man!!!
"Nah, take la!?"...hehehe

King of the roads..almost =))

I pawn the roads man!! Muahahaha..i've just finished clocking in 8 hours of driving and now i'm eligible to take the test. YES!!! I'm gonna take the mock test or QTI on sat and if i pass i'll be able to take the test somewhere within the week. Woohoo!!! Righteous!!

Other then that the holidays prove to be rather useless. I think i've managed to finish one add math kertas 1. The rest of the time has been evenly divided between playing ps2 and tv. I'm not a big believer on study breaks but i have a feeling that i'ma have to start using the holidays for revision before i'm screwed.

My mum smsed me the other day from amsterdam. Says she's fine and having a great time. Yeah, well done mum, while i'm sitting in the living room watching reruns of the Simpson's. Fantastic, you know, i somehow wish i had went on that trip with my mum. It'll be a whole lot more interesting than sitting in the living room watching Homer getting drunk while the Quick-e-mart gets robbed by the SAME person. At least she's bringing home chocolates.=)

Went out with my dad today to get me a new putter, mines pretty much screwed, can't putt staright if my life depended on it. Neways, for the FIRST time in my life, highways were empty. Seriously empty man. There were probally one or two cars but that was about it. Its pretty scary if ya think bout it. I mean, its KL, since when are the streets empty. But i suppose it was good, or else i'd be stuck in the jam. So i got this kick ass putter (its for golf..incase you aren't familiar with golf lingo) and a new pair of golf shoes. Righteous!!

Liverpool lost, AGAIN. Its getting really annoying now, especially when you've got people like Justin messaging you all the time to remind you. Whats wrost is that liverpool lost to man u, MANCHESTER BLARDY UNITED of all teams. *sigh* I was really hoping liverpool would win this one, not only cause they could use the points since their 11th on the league now but with the win came serious bragging rights, i mean SERIOUS bragging right and probally FOR ONCE i wouldn't have to listen to Justin. But....its just a sad story.

It seems the haze it getting better. Maybe the stupid bastards in Sumatera finally pitied us, after all, we're the ones suffocating. I just don't get it, if ya can't stop them why don't you just kill those bastards, the world'd be better off without them. Fuiyo..sound like Hitler man. =) But then again i SUPPOSE killing IS bad. If ya look at it,its kinda stupid cause it happens year in year out and you'd think the Malaysian goverment would at least have the balls to address the matter instead of just giving us the IPU of each city.(wow...) Meh, then again half of them are probally busy taking bribes while the others just like sitting in their big ass offices.*sigh* And Malaysians, what can we do but wait for the IPU to sky rocket so we can at least get a holiday out of this ordeal.

I guess thats bout it for now. Had a great time last Friday =)). So till next time...

p.s...try reading "State of Fear" or "Airframe" by Micheal Crichton, really good.

RIGHTEOUS!!

Ola mi amigo! School was retarded, practically half the class was absent. Its like they just decided to declare themselves absent and just not come to school! Now i'm starting to wonder why i didn't do the same! Thomas you moron! I practically just sat in class and warmed up the seats and now i can't skip school on friday cause i need to go collect my progress sheet. Wake up at 6 in the morning then leave at 12 just to collect the progress report, what a blardy waste of time..*sigh*

So its official, the post examination activities are on now. Its the time of year where students can run like chickens and bark like a dog at the same time, unless your in form 5 ofcourse in which you, me included of course, will be subjected to the sidelines, becoming mere admirers. I kinda miss those times, but then again, i knew the time would come where i would eventually have to stand by the sidelines and watch it all pass. I really have no regrets, i've played my heart out during the post examinations for the past four years and i suppose time was up.

ONE MORE MONTH BABY!!!! Thats right, tomorrow, it'll OFFICIALLY one more month before the SPM. I'm honestly kinda excited, i can't wait for it to be over. It however seems as though more and more people are turning a bit lop-sided. I suppose its just strees.

On a lighter note my mom has offcially left for europe. She's going on a 10 day trip with my aunt who btw, has never been outstation except for singapore in her life. Initially i was supposed to accompany my mum but due to unfortunate circumstances namely the SPM i couldn't so now my aunt is filling my place. They'll be going to all the hot spots which i think i've pretty much been to. I told her to buy back chocs, although i'm pretty sure she'd do it whether i tell her too or not. She says in europe, the only thing worth buying in chocs and quite frankly i tend to agree. I think the only place she's gonna go to whcih i haven't is the Lourve, but i've still got plenty of time left in me to visit the Lourve, so not really bothered. One day, i'ma gonna take a road trip all around europe and maybe the states. I think that'd be nice, i think everyone should have a good road trip at least once in their life.

Well then, thats bout it really, its back to studying i suppose, only got one month to go, but honestly nowadays i'm finding it very hard to just go and study, i mean, it was already hard to begin with but now its just gotten harder, i feel as if there isn't much point studying now but no matter, i shall persevere and study my ass of during the holidays..right after i finish watching season 3 of one tree hill..=)). So to all you guys out there, depending on who you are, i bid you either a good time studying or happy hols. Thomas over and out....

Trouble in paradise?

Salute! So i'm back, i've just survived hell on earth (so to speak la) and i say it ain't half that bad. Got back all of my results and i'm not terribly happy, actually rather disappointed but hey watcha gonna do, i suppose thats life eh. But no matter, its all done now, nothing much i can do. at least i'll be getting all A's for my forcast results except moral, damn moral, i don't even know why we study moral, its the most hypocritical subject.

Once again i appologise for my irregular blogs, these past few days have been rather interesating for me, lots of contemplation took place, won't bother with the details. I find sometimes we are eluded by a false sense of reality. We think we know ourselves but really we don't, i've been thinking bout what others see me as, or as what i think others see me as, its kinda weird really cause different people see me differently, but i suppose thats just how it is.

I've finally found out why zabs has been acting strange and relatively ignoring me lately, and if you ask me its really stupid but, nah, can't be bothered any more. Say what would your ideal paradise/fantasy/dream world be like? I think i'd like mine to be something out of the books, prolly like narnia, except i'm king and i can do all those kick ass kung-fu moves and all that voodoo shit and just kick everyone's ass chinese style..waacha!!!lmao...but i guess it'd be cool, sides i always wanted to do all those kick ass kung-fu moves and just fly in air like all 'em chinese movie dudes..LOOK!! IT'S A BIRD! NO IT'S A PLANE! NO ITS THOMAS!!! =)

So guess thats it for now, damn liverpool..can't even beat blackburn, AT HOME!! *sigh* I'll be hearing this on monday and yea i suppose emo month is over but hey, watcha gonna do, when it comes it comes eh. O.o..i've also signed myself up for prom, i don't really know why, since i was so hell bent on not going but i dunno, i still wanna go to golok tho..oi adam, you wanna go to golok or not??

Shoot all the bluejays you want, if you can hit 'em, but remember it's a sin to kill a mockingbird- To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

I feel guilty. Ever wonder why hurting the people that mean most to you hurts the most, and how its harder to ask for forgiveness, how its harder to forgive. I think its cause eventhough we forgive the pain is always there, the lingering memory of that one incident. And the fact that you know the person just adds to the heartache.

So the study break is here, i don't think it'll do any of us any good really, cause i think all we'll do is just procrastinate and then wonder why we didn't study when we were so conviniently given the time to do so. But like any good boy, i've tried, failing quite miserably. I think i managed to down a chapter of chem before the computer caught my eye. I think i'm gonna go watch a movie. Maybe next week. While watching i'll try and ignore the fact that SPM's only a month away, i don't think i can, but hey, i can always try.

I wonder if we'll ever see each other again after this year. We always said we would keep in touch so we could always find out what the other was doing but i wonder, will we? Many friends were made during this time and many will be lost at the end of this year. And for those going to the same college next year, we're merely prolonging the inevitable goodbye, making it harder than it has to be. We always talked about our future, how we want to be this and study there and do great things, but i suppose its these minor things we never think of. I'm not saying that we should live together and ignore our future, but i can't help but wonder sometimes. I wonder if years down the road, i'll remember the people i used to call friends in sec. school, or will they remember me. Or if we see each other in the streets, will we greet each other the same way we do know. Or will we feel the same about a person we like 5 years form now. I suppose there really is only one way to find out...

Thats bout it, and i'm sorry, i don't know if you're reading but if you are, i'm sure you know who you are, i'm sorry, i have no explanations except that i should've told you the truth even if i knew that you'd kill me and prolly be mad at me for a long time, but i still should've.

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in"- Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom